I Just Cant Live A Lie..

Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you..
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier..
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can't watch you walk away..
Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we've been through?
Could I wake up without you every day?
Would I let you walk away?
No, I can't learn to live without
And I can't give up on us now

Oh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me?
And all the reasons that make loving you so easy?
The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe?
The way you know just what I mean?
No, I can't learn to live without
Ohh, so don't you give up on us now

Ohh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Ohh, and I don't wanna try

Ohhhh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

I just can't live a lie

But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Oh, I cant live a lie...

A Nightmare ?

I listened to this song while writing this ..
it just killed me !

Song: Holding out for a Hero
Artist: Ella Mae Bowen

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its like a nightmare ..
a nightmare I cant seem to wake up from ..
late at night i toss and turn and cant seem to sleep
my mind cant stop thinking about you ..
my brain is so tired that my eyes are doing half of the thinking ..
they stay awake all night, hoping you would come back and save me from this nightmare ..

I miss you ..
I miss everything about you ..
and I cant seem to get you out of my head ..
you cross my mind each second , each minute and each hour that passes by..

its like a fire in my heart ..
I'm burning ..and you have no idea whats going on ..
you don't know what i am going through ..
nor how my heart is suffering and waiting for your return ..
I wish i can run towards you .. hold you in my arms and never let you go ..
I wish you can look me in the eyes and promise me that you'll never leave me  again ..
that you will stay beside me through it all ..
that you'll be laying down next to me at night telling me that it will all be alright ..

I have been waiting for days ..
days have turned into months ..
and months turned into a year..
it was just that summer when I was running my fingers through your hair ..
how you looked at me with those blue sparkling eyes and smiled ..
I wish i can go back time ..
relive these memories again ..
and feel the exquisite and indescribable happiness I felt when I was with you ..
Cant imagine it was those small moments that kept me alive all this time..and tattooed a beautiful memory inside my head , my heart and best of all my life ..

Sometimes I think about you before I go to bed..
so I can see you in my dreams ..
and just look at that beautiful smile ..
and just not wake up at all ..

with you everything was different ..
 life was colorful ..
Streets were beautiful ..
Stars at night had a different sparkle ..
the air was so pure ..
It was all connected back to you ..
everything you touched was just amazing ..

I wonder how your doing now ..
are you okay ? do you have a girlfriend ?...
 are you in love ?
 Do you remember me ?
Do I ever cross your mind ??
Do you still love me ?
Do you still wear that sweater I gave you ??
hhhhhhh..
My heart is aching ..
I wish I can see you one last time ..
and just tell you how much you mean to me ..
that you were the best thing that has ever happened to me..
the distance between us causes my heart to weaken and weaken ..
until it couldn't hold on anymore..
couldn't bare the fact that you are 10,000 miles away .. even more ..
it broke down into pieces ..
turned into ice..
became so cold and numb that it can no longer feel a thing anymore..

but still..
I Have hope that one day i'll see you again..
look into your eyes..
hold you in my  arms ..
and never let you go ..

we'll walk together ..
towards a journey of our own ..
then , we can  finally write our own story  ..

No More ..

Don't Understand what we gonna do ..

But it's like you don't know me 

And I don't know you , no more..
Not! No more..

And it's like .. damn , how the hell we get here ? 

No idea , but we're not  what we were before ..

               Could it be that I don't Love you and you don't Love me no more ?

If I'm Honest By Missy Higgins

Darling, if I'm honest
You've been on my mind, on my mind all day.
And lately, if I'm honest
I can't bring myself to think no other way.

I've been finding all kinds
Of reckless ways to forget your face
Like going out on the town
And spreading around
All that love I kept for you.

But no one
Touches me like you used to
It's a shame but it's true
Nobody loves me the way that you used to.

And darling, well, I've been moving
Through seas of faces hoping to meet your stare
And dancing towards any strangers
With your crazy eyes or wayward golden hair

I've been finding all kinds
Of useless ways just to push it all down
Like spinning around, spinning around
'Til I fall onto the ground..

But no one
Touches me like you used to
It's a shame but it's true
Nobody loves me the way that you used to.

And I painted over all the cracks
But now the paint is peeling back

Oh yeah, oh yeah
It's a shame but it's true (nobody loves me)
When the flame turned blue (nobody loves me)
It burned a hole right through
Now nobody loves me the way that,
The way that you, the way that you used to.

Florence + The Machine - Never let me go

 Every time I hear this piece of Art I Just get goosebumps .. and tears fill my eyes..cause I wish you Never Let me go ..

cause when you left..you left a history of memories ..of pictures in my head ..and in my heart..that will stay inside of me forever ..
your eyes..
how they sparkled ..
the smell of your skin ..
still I remember ..
your smile ..
tattooed in my head ..
your voice ..
melody to my heart ..

your absence killed me ..
took every bit of energy inside of me..
I still wish I can see your face one more time..

I miss you deeply ..

written by: Me ..

P!nk - Try

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Where there is desire, there is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame, someone's bound to get burned
Just because it burns, doesn't mean your gonna die
ya gotta get up and try..
Ever worry that it might be ruined

and does it make you wanna cry..?
When your out there doing what your doing
are you just getting by..?
You just gotta get up and Try..