Wednesday, September 4, 2013

You ..


It was that day when I thought that everything will change...  
That I will feel something...
That life would have a special meaning...
I saw that picture of you...
And imagine our whole life together...
How you will be beside me every night...
How I will wake up beside you every morning with the biggest smile on my face...
How you will take my hand away from this cruel world... and take me to your world...
And how its me and you against the world...
You were in my head every second of the day...
When I was watching TV, in the shower...in my bed... in my car... when I'm eating...
I couldn't stop thinking about you...

And how your name was stuck in my head...
And my hands kept pressing that folder that holds your picture...
And then it shocked me...that you were not the one I imagined...
Instead you were a heart broken man...
She broke your heart and left you fragile and weak without anything at all...
And that it will take you a while to get over it...
And that your heart is bleeding and in pain...
There is no way that you will see me, come to me unless you completely healed...
I can't help but think how if things were just different...
How if you were not heart broken... and you were healthy with a healthy heart and soul...
How I will give you my life , my heart , my eyes my everything ..
Make your life a colorful journey...

I went to bad last night thinking about you...
About the details of your face...
Of how your lips were shaped for mine...
And your fingers filling the space between mine...
The warmth of your body against mine...
It all came to my head...and just had a complete picture of our life together...
I had to go to sleep to end all these illusions in my head...
Woke up to find myself somewhere else...
Where was I?
Oh yeah, it's my room...
Thinking about you made me lose my mind...

I woke up got dressed and for a reason found myself with a camera and a laptop heading to my favorite cake shop...
I went there... and... Oh... my...my heart stopped beating...
You were there... with a friend of yours...
How is this true? How can I think about you and see you the next day??

I sat down on my laptop... and suddenly found myself sitting beside you...
You were there talking...and I couldn't hear anything because my heart and brain were memorized by your appearance...
You can't imagine how long I waited to see that smile of yours...
How longing my heart was for you...
I sat there with you and it was like I am on the top of the world... in a whole different place...
We left the cake shop...
Finding myself in your car...
And how you were right there beside me...
My heart felt absolutely speechless...

In a couple of minutes you were gone...
And I realized that my eyes were woken up from my alarm clock...
I guess this is what it's supposed to feel in a world with you...

I hated the fact that I was just in a dream with you...and extremely happy...

What If I was with you in reality?
What on earth could happen more than happiness over filling my heart and mind??

I will leave that to fate...

Maybe one day it will bring us together...

And I will no longer have to think or dream..