Gone ..In a Second ..

I headed up to my room...

Running up the stairs...

Keeping my tears from coming down...

And as I was bending down to grab my headphones...

To listen to the melody... that sad melody of your absence...

I felt this sudden pain in my heart...

I put my hand on it 

Checked if it's okay...

A sudden pain overcame my heart...

I don’t want you to feel pain...

You're too weak to bear any pain...

I whispered...

He is gone now...

And even if he comes back, don’t let him in again...

Let him go, let him walk away...

He didn't fight for you anyways...

But, I really want to hold him for the last time...

My heart replied...

You won't gain a thing but pain...

Sigh...

I wish I can look into your eyes for the last time...

And let my eyes do the talking...

And just stand in silence...

I came downstairs

With tears in my eyes...

Holding them... not wanting to open up the wound...

You meant something to me... but I couldn’t bear the pain

I had to stop myself from thinking about you

And the fact that you are gone

I pressed play...and listened to that sad melody...

I took a deep breath and tears were filling my eyes...

I am going to miss you...

I am going to miss everything...

Your smile...

Your eyes...

Your name...

I feel so scared...

 So cold...

Sleepless...

What now?

Do you even care?

Do you even know how much you mean to me?

How is it easy for you to just walk away?

I wrote you a letter saying it's not easy to let you go...

That it's not going to be easy on me...

I wait for your response...

I got nothing

Nothing at all

All I heard was nothing

Nothing

I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Here I am

Left with no answers

Left here without you

Left with just a memory

A small piece of you that u left behind

Holding on to it

Till the time comes

When I let you go

Blow the ashes of your memory away

And just erase your name

..And move on