Lost

Tired...

Shivering...

Filled with fear...

How can I not be when I am in this huge forest filled with scary voices?

I am exhausted from shouting, from running...

And all I hear is my own eco...

They tell me that it's going to be okay...

That it's just life testing you and seeing how patient and strong you are...

Well, I don’t think I can tolerate it anymore...

I've been waiting for you and all I get is my own eco's and my own shadow...

While all I have been waiting was your voice and your presence to be my shadow...

No, I am not okay...

And how can u say what's wrong when nothing is right?

I keep pressing replay on that song...

How the lyrics take me to another place...

How it just makes my body shiver and my eyes filled with painful tears...

When will I get out of this??

When will I leave this forest I seemed to be lost in and cannot find my way back...

Cannot find my way back to you...

When will I wake up to your smile??

When will you tell me that everything is going to be okay when the whole world turns its back on me?

I am so lost...

I am caught in the middle between here and there...

Should I go back?

Or should I stay here??

Why are you making me go through all this hardship??

Why don’t you just come ,, and save me from all this world I am in ??

I wake up with hope...

That you will return...

I sleep with prayers...

That god will answer them and bring you to me as soon as I open my eyes in the morning ..
I want to spend winter with you, get wet in the rain... and sleep in the warmth of your arms...

I want to spend every season with you and enjoy the beauty of each one...

And have our names carved once each season passes...

To remind us that our love never changes while seasons do...

I have never felt so helpless. .

 Lost...

 Sleep deprived...

My heart is worn out...

It's handling so much right now that it's so close to becoming completely numb …

So...

All I have to do is wait...

Until my prayers are answered...

My heart is healed...

My eyes are cured...

My body is warm...

And no longer lost...