Leaving ..

I turn the volume up ..
My heart starts beating so fast ..
memories come flashing by so fast ..
My head was so tired with  a million thoughts , a million pictures , a million memories running inside of it ..
I want to just lay down and dream ..
forget about the whole world outside ..
and dream of a world of me and you ..
Wow..so peaceful , so beautiful , so pure .. and so new ..

Time is ticking and I will have to say my goodbyes ..
I cant tolerate it ..
I cant leave all of this behind ..
As much as I wanted to leave ..
it suddenly feels scary ..

I don't know what I am doing ..
I also don't know if its the right thing to do ..
but sometimes you just have to let go  .. move on .. and look ahead instead of breaking your neck and looking backwards ..

Where are you to watch my back ?
and make me forget about this all ..
I just can't wait to see you ..
cause when I do .. All of this wont matter ..
everything in this world wouldn't matter ..
My ultimate joy would be .. You ..
what else do I want ??

I will leave everything behind and wait for you ..
Pray every night ..
ask god to bring you to me ..
I lost a lot of hope ..
But the hope of being with you and holding you in my arms is still there ..

Nothing is the same without you ..
Absolutely Nothing ..