Waiting ..

That lonely chair in the middle of the beautiful park filled with green trees 

and yellow leaves that had fallen from the cold beautiful soothing wind ..

Tired of running from the past and my fears I sat down to take a deep breath and just gaze into the beauty of the green trees and listen to the birds singing and the beautiful silence of the wind..brushing through my face ..

I tried to hide my pain , and my tears were racing each other to fall down ..

I didn’t wanna show it ,, I didn’t want anyone to know I'm in pain ..

I am strong , and I can do this ! I am not weak ! and I never was !

my tears couldn’t tolerate the pain … my heart was in pain .. wanting to rip itself out of my body and leave me heartless..

My tears rushed down my face unintentionally and my heart started beating fast

I started to cry so loud that the trees felt my pain .. and they bent down their branches to comfort me ..

People were walking by as if I didn't exist ..

My eyes became so red , I tried to wipe away my tears but they kept coming down ..

What should I do ??

I am here all alone without you , a total mess.. a total lost person ..

come back and give me all the hope that I can have ,,

come and hold my hand and wipe away my tears with your soft hands that can cure my pain come and put ur hand on my heart and heal it with your unconditional love ..

I wish you were here .. I don't want anything in this world but you ..

Nothing and no one matters to me  but you ..

I promise that I will never push you away or let  you go ..

You’re my wings to a better life and a better world ..

You're my wake up call to reality ..

I gaze into the dark blue sky wishing and praying you come behind me ..

Wrap your arms around me and take me to a different place ..

That’s all I wanted that moment , nothing else ..

I'm still here..

Waiting .. hoping .. praying that you will come to me ..

And set me free.