Lana Del Rey - Ride

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Py_-3di1yx0

You ..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aNzCDt2eidg

It was that day when I thought that everything will change...  

That I will feel something...

That life would have a special meaning...

I saw that picture of you...

And imagine our whole life together...

How you will be beside me every night...

How I will wake up beside you every morning with the biggest smile on my face...

How you will take my hand away from this cruel world... and take me to your world...

And how its me and you against the world...

You were in my head every second of the day...

When I was watching TV, in the shower...in my bed... in my car... when I'm eating...

I couldn't stop thinking about you...

And how your name was stuck in my head...

And my hands kept pressing that folder that holds your picture...

And then it shocked me...that you were not the one I imagined...

Instead you were a heart broken man...

She broke your heart and left you fragile and weak without anything at all...

And that it will take you a while to get over it...

And that your heart is bleeding and in pain...

There is no way that you will see me, come to me unless you completely healed...

I can't help but think how if things were just different...

How if you were not heart broken... and you were healthy with a healthy heart and soul...

How I will give you my life , my heart , my eyes my everything ..

Make your life a colorful journey...

I went to bad last night thinking about you...

About the details of your face...

Of how your lips were shaped for mine...

And your fingers filling the space between mine...

The warmth of your body against mine...

It all came to my head...and just had a complete picture of our life together...

I had to go to sleep to end all these illusions in my head...

Woke up to find myself somewhere else...

Where was I?

Oh yeah, it's my room...

Thinking about you made me lose my mind...

I woke up got dressed and for a reason found myself with a camera and a laptop heading to my favorite cake shop...

I went there... and... Oh... my...my heart stopped beating...

You were there... with a friend of yours...

How is this true? How can I think about you and see you the next day??

I sat down on my laptop... and suddenly found myself sitting beside you...

You were there talking...and I couldn't hear anything because my heart and brain were memorized by your appearance...

You can't imagine how long I waited to see that smile of yours...

How longing my heart was for you...

I sat there with you and it was like I am on the top of the world... in a whole different place...

We left the cake shop...

Finding myself in your car...

And how you were right there beside me...

My heart felt absolutely speechless...

In a couple of minutes you were gone...

And I realized that my eyes were woken up from my alarm clock...

I guess this is what it's supposed to feel in a world with you...

I hated the fact that I was just in a dream with you...and extremely happy...

What If I was with you in reality?

What on earth could happen more than happiness over filling my heart and mind??

I will leave that to fate...

Maybe one day it will bring us together...

And I will no longer have to think or dream..

Questions ..

Many questions went running through my head..
Where am I  ?
what am I doing here??

and why am I still here??
why didn't I move ??
why ??

I kept asking myself many questions ..
I looked inside my heart ..
It wasn't my heart ..
It was a tired and black heart filled with hatred and pain ..
how did this happen ??

I thought that by this time ..
I'll be healthy .. cured .. and happy ..
It all feels so wrong ..
and time starts passing by ..
hours turn into days ..
and everything stays the same..
still cant find answers to these questions inside of my heart ..
and I am here loosing every part of me ..

Wait ..
where are you ??
and why didn't you come ??
what is taking you so long ??

I don't really know whats going on ..
I really cannot feel a thing ..
my heart is gone dead ..
and my mind is grieving for losing my heart ..
they are always connected .. my heart and head .. they cannot live separately ..
and my mind is going crazy for losing my heart ..
my heart was full of light .. full of love .. full of life ..
and now ..
its empty ..
numb ..
with nothing left inside..
not memories ..
not pictures ..
not even those unforgettable words that I have hidden inside ..
nothing at all ..

I can't run ..
where would I go anyways ?
I can't talk ..
for my voice is gone ..from screaming out your name ..
I can't move ..
for my legs are paralyzed from looking for you ..
I can't see..
for your image kept haunting my mind and heart that it took away my sight ..

its funny how life turns out exactly the opposite of you expected ..

All my loved ones are people that I can't seem to talk to or see ..
I don't need anyone to see..
nor to talk to ..
I just need you ..

For you are the answer to all my questions ..

Lifehouse - Always Somewhere Close

Cant get enough ..



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9E5Z1VEVO20

Confessions

I lied when I said I didn't care ..
I lied when I said I am better off ..

I admit that I waited ..
and waited for a sign from you ..
a call ..
or a message ..
until I got one today ..
your name appeared on my screen ..
and all I could think of was .. its over ..
although it barely began ..

you said that you wanted to be with me ..
but you cant.. that things are complicated ..
I didn't know what to reply ..
I stood there with silence ..
I couldn't form any sentences or words ..

I replied ..with a short sentence ..
Good luck in everything ..
and goodbye ..

I have never felt so cold or numb in my life..
but I didn't know what to say or do ..

I  still open my phone almost everyday ..
and just look at your name ..
It gives me some weird and good feeling that I can't describe in words..

you are thousand of miles away now ..
I just wish things were different ..
cause I would be with you now ..
and everything would have been different ..

farewell .. 

Mystified

just when I thought that hope found its way back to me ..

just when I thought that its finally time to move on and look ahead ..

just when I thought that my prayers were answered ..

and I no longer have to feel alone anymore ..

that my dark nights are over ..

those sleepless nights when I just wait for you to show up ..

when I hear a voice in my head that says .. your pain will heal one special day ..

I started to get my strength back again ..

and as you came along ..I wasn't sure if I was happy or numb ..

I felt a small amount of joy .. but my heart didn't feel a thing ..

your presence brought me happiness ..

I wanted to tell my heart to open itself and start to feel something .. something called emotion ..

but nothing ..

nothing at all ..

You came along , and I wanted to convince myself to let go of the past ..

and just focus on the fact that you are here .. right in front of me ..

you looked into my eyes ..and for a second I felt something ..

as if you looked into my soul ..

we sat that day .. and talked for hours , laughed and talked about everything ..

how I opened up to you ..

as If I knew you for ages ..

I don't know how I felt , but it was a good feeling ..

but I wasn't dancing with that brown skirt I wore for you ..

I went home .. took it off and looked into the mirror ..

whats wrong with me?? why don't I feel a thing ??

I thought that after I see you ..

I would want to run away with you ..

and leave everything behind ..

but no ..

I didn't feel a thing ..

you didn't call after that ..

or even send a text ..

you left me with nothing at all ..how could you ?!!? 

and now .. I feel so lost ..

I feel that I lost you ..

but how can I lose something that I never had ?

I feel that I am never going to see you again ..

did I push you away ??

did I say something wrong ??

I don't know what on earth  happened ..cause I am sure I didn't do a thing !

but every time I enter my car and put a song on ..

tears come to my eyes ..

but they don't come down ..

as if they don't know if they should cry from sadness ..

or just tolerate the pain ..

you cant just walk away and leave me with nothing !
you cant just leave me hanging waiting for your call ..
that's so unfair ..
I gave you all my trust .. and this is what you do ?
I am so thankful that my heart didn't feel a thing for you !

I sit here on my couch ..

imagining how things would have been if I was with you now..

but ..

I need to stop ..

and move on ..

its what my heart is getting used to now ..

getting hurt , healing , moving on ..

until that time comes ..when I meet that special someone ..

my heart will feel nothing at all ..

cover itself with layers ..

Until that someone comes along ..and it will reveal everything..

and take off every single layer ..

and hold them inside ..

forever ..

Saja's Writings 

My Addiction

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZ312RxA980

One Phone Call..

The phone rang ..

your voice was on the other side..
how it brought back so  many memories ..
how is was such an unforgettable summer ..
how my heart breaks a little when I hear your name ..

It all came flashing by ..
Your smile ..your eyes .. your words..
how every single move you did meant something ..
The way we used to stay up all night .. talk about silly things ..and laugh till the sunlight ..
how your shoulder was the best place for my head ..
and the way you stole my heart .. I loved you with every single bit of me ..

And how I cried so much when you left ..
how Your smell stayed on that jacket .. and the fact that I wore it for months ..
how we used to have our endless phone calls although you were thousand of miles away ..
distance didn't break us apart , it brought us closer ..
I miss you ..
I admit it ... I miss everything about you ..
I don't know what was going on through my head when I let you walk away ..
I say it again .. I  miss you so much ..

I wish I can just repeat that summer all over again , but differently .. by never letting you go ..
we talked for an hour ..
we haven't talked for a long time ..
All our memories came flashing by ..
I wanted to say a million things , but my heart stopped me ..

Its been two years now , I am sure you found someone new ..
I just want you to know ..
That even if we both find our special ones , and go in our separate ways ..
your memory will always be tattooed in my head ..

I don't know what will happen when I see you again..
Act like everything is okay , although I am burning inside ..
or run towards you and hold you in my arms ?

I pray to god that I don't see you..
because I don't know if my heart can tolerate holding you inside of it and then having to let you go..
So,till that day comes ..
I lay my head down ..
and ..
Remember that summer..

Lost

Tired...

Shivering...

Filled with fear...

How can I not be when I am in this huge forest filled with scary voices?

I am exhausted from shouting, from running...

And all I hear is my own eco...

They tell me that it's going to be okay...

That it's just life testing you and seeing how patient and strong you are...

Well, I don’t think I can tolerate it anymore...

I've been waiting for you and all I get is my own eco's and my own shadow...

While all I have been waiting was your voice and your presence to be my shadow...

No, I am not okay...

And how can u say what's wrong when nothing is right?

I keep pressing replay on that song...

How the lyrics take me to another place...

How it just makes my body shiver and my eyes filled with painful tears...

When will I get out of this??

When will I leave this forest I seemed to be lost in and cannot find my way back...

Cannot find my way back to you...

When will I wake up to your smile??

When will you tell me that everything is going to be okay when the whole world turns its back on me?

I am so lost...

I am caught in the middle between here and there...

Should I go back?

Or should I stay here??

Why are you making me go through all this hardship??

Why don’t you just come ,, and save me from all this world I am in ??

I wake up with hope...

That you will return...

I sleep with prayers...

That god will answer them and bring you to me as soon as I open my eyes in the morning ..
I want to spend winter with you, get wet in the rain... and sleep in the warmth of your arms...

I want to spend every season with you and enjoy the beauty of each one...

And have our names carved once each season passes...

To remind us that our love never changes while seasons do...

I have never felt so helpless. .

 Lost...

 Sleep deprived...

My heart is worn out...

It's handling so much right now that it's so close to becoming completely numb …

So...

All I have to do is wait...

Until my prayers are answered...

My heart is healed...

My eyes are cured...

My body is warm...

And no longer lost... 

Afraid ..

I look at you with fear ..
I looks at your last movements..
I look at you without any words to say ..

Speechless .. Or my mouth is numb that it can't describe it in words..
There you are .. right in front of me ..and I can't say a single word ..

I am leaving ..
with so many things to say ..
with so many things to tell you ..
but , with a lot of fear , I don't say word..
I don't want to get hurt again..
I am afraid you will kill me again with your harsh words..
I am afraid to tell you that I am leaving ..
and you would just look at me and walk away ..

without a single move..
Leaving me with nothing at all ..

If  I could just read your eyes ..
everything would have been solved ..
I can't ..
reading you needs super powers..and I don't have any ..

I am telling you now ..
and as I type those words down ..
I will truly miss you ..
I will leave ..
to another place ..
and go find myself again..
I feel so lost that I can't remember who I am anymore..
all I did was give and give while I was the one in need ..

Funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one who needed saving ..
I don't know how to look you in the eye without saying a word..
I don't know how to leave without saying goodbye..
that's if you even care that I am leaving ..

I guess there is nothing to do but look at you ..
and my eyes will do the rest..

And just walk away..

Saja's Writings 

You Got What I Need - Joshua Radin

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=XgaksJ7bezQ



Absolutely Amazing !!!!

Leaving ..

I turn the volume up ..
My heart starts beating so fast ..
memories come flashing by so fast ..
My head was so tired with  a million thoughts , a million pictures , a million memories running inside of it ..
I want to just lay down and dream ..
forget about the whole world outside ..
and dream of a world of me and you ..
Wow..so peaceful , so beautiful , so pure .. and so new ..

Time is ticking and I will have to say my goodbyes ..
I cant tolerate it ..
I cant leave all of this behind ..
As much as I wanted to leave ..
it suddenly feels scary ..

I don't know what I am doing ..
I also don't know if its the right thing to do ..
but sometimes you just have to let go  .. move on .. and look ahead instead of breaking your neck and looking backwards ..

Where are you to watch my back ?
and make me forget about this all ..
I just can't wait to see you ..
cause when I do .. All of this wont matter ..
everything in this world wouldn't matter ..
My ultimate joy would be .. You ..
what else do I want ??

I will leave everything behind and wait for you ..
Pray every night ..
ask god to bring you to me ..
I lost a lot of hope ..
But the hope of being with you and holding you in my arms is still there ..

Nothing is the same without you ..
Absolutely Nothing ..

Waiting ..

That lonely chair in the middle of the beautiful park filled with green trees 

and yellow leaves that had fallen from the cold beautiful soothing wind ..

Tired of running from the past and my fears I sat down to take a deep breath and just gaze into the beauty of the green trees and listen to the birds singing and the beautiful silence of the wind..brushing through my face ..

I tried to hide my pain , and my tears were racing each other to fall down ..

I didn’t wanna show it ,, I didn’t want anyone to know I'm in pain ..

I am strong , and I can do this ! I am not weak ! and I never was !

my tears couldn’t tolerate the pain … my heart was in pain .. wanting to rip itself out of my body and leave me heartless..

My tears rushed down my face unintentionally and my heart started beating fast

I started to cry so loud that the trees felt my pain .. and they bent down their branches to comfort me ..

People were walking by as if I didn't exist ..

My eyes became so red , I tried to wipe away my tears but they kept coming down ..

What should I do ??

I am here all alone without you , a total mess.. a total lost person ..

come back and give me all the hope that I can have ,,

come and hold my hand and wipe away my tears with your soft hands that can cure my pain come and put ur hand on my heart and heal it with your unconditional love ..

I wish you were here .. I don't want anything in this world but you ..

Nothing and no one matters to me  but you ..

I promise that I will never push you away or let  you go ..

You’re my wings to a better life and a better world ..

You're my wake up call to reality ..

I gaze into the dark blue sky wishing and praying you come behind me ..

Wrap your arms around me and take me to a different place ..

That’s all I wanted that moment , nothing else ..

I'm still here..

Waiting .. hoping .. praying that you will come to me ..

And set me free.

Speechless

Speechless ..

I felt ..

My emotions aren't there anymore ..

I guess my heart went into a frozen phase ..  or it actually stopped beating ..

No words ..  

its like my mouth was paralyzed and couldn't bear to say a word ..

I was tired physically and mentally ..                 

My legs couldn’t even carry me anymore ..

I could barely get up in the morning , get in the shower to erase some pain away , but nothing was gone ..

It was all glued to my body and buried under my skin ..

Wear any pair of jeans and a shirt and just head out of the house ..

Get in my car ,, turn on the radio , and there goes my heart telling me to stop ..

That it cannot tolerate any kind of pain or disappointments ..

My tears started to fall down ..

What's happening ??

Why am I on this road alone ??

My heart started to beat slowly and I could barely breathe ..

I pulled over , looked at my shirt ..

There it was .. blood all over my shirt ..

My heart was crying from the pain ..

I pressed upon my chest to stop the bleeding ..but no use ..

I put my head on the steering wheel and started to scream your name ..

Where are you ??? where are you to save my heart from bleeding ???

I waited and waited .. I was losing my voice , my blood and control

I stepped out of the car ..

Started to walk , and blood was dripping behind me leaving a path ..

A path of pain , of losing hope..

The sound of the wind crashes through my ears ..

I started to run ..

And look around me ..

For a shadow of you ..

For the sound of your voice ..

For a memory ..

For footsteps to follow..

My body was losing too much blood..

I started to slow down..

Laid down on the ground..

I didn't know what to do or where to go , or who to turn to..

I was all alone in this dark lonely place..

You promised me you will come back ..

The fact that my heart was holding on to that all this time killed it..

It was like a bullet to my head ..

To my heart ..

I laid down ..

Couldn’t move a single muscle ..

Started to cry ..

Where are you ??

Where have you been all this time ??

I need you ..

Need your name to carve on my body ..

And your smell to nourish me..

and your hands to fill in the spaces between my fingers..

The sound of you calling my name to nurture my ears..

I need all of you and nothing but you ..

I thought I could survive ..

I thought that I can make it ..

But I was mistaken all this time ..

I need you ..

I ask for you in every single prayer ..

I pray for you every single night ..

And I want to wake up one day..

And just find you here .. by my side..

I stayed there on the ground ..

Laying down ..

Smoked my last cigarette ..

Closed my eyes..

And slept ..

Hoping some of my pain will heal when I wake up

 
Saja's Writings 

Rihanna - Stay ft. Mikky Ekko

Angie Miller Performs "Never Gone" - AMERICAN IDOL SEASON 12

Lights off, a shot in the dark
We get lost when we're playing a part
We lay blame like we know what's best
It's a shame

We break when we fall too hard
Lose faith when we're torn apart
Don't say you're too far gone
It's a shame
It's a shame

I'm still standing here
No, I didn't disappear
Now the lights are on
See I was never gone

I let go of your hand
To help you understand
With you all along
Oh, I was never gone

There's space between our lives
Hard to face, but I know we try
To revive, bring it back to life
Don't walk away
Don't walk away

I'm still standing here
No, I didn't disappear
Now the lights are on
See I was never gone

I let go of your hand
To help you understand
With you all along
Oh, I was never gone

I never ever left you
Never ever left you, no
He said, I never ever left you
Never ever left you, no
Jesus never ever left you
Never ever left you, no
He sees us even in the darkness
Now you know you're not alone

I'm still standing here
No, I didn't disappear
Now the lights are on
See I was never gone

I let go of your hand
To help you understand
With you all along
Oh, I was never gone

I'm still standing here
No, I didn't disappear
Now the lights are on
See I was never gone

I let go of your hand
To help you understand
With you all along
Oh, I was never gone

Colton Dixon-Never Gone

Lights off, a shot in the dark
We get lost when we're playing a part
We lay blame like we know what's best
It's a shame

We break when we fall too hard
Lose faith when we're torn apart
Don't say you're too far gone
It's a shame
It's a shame

I'm still standing here
No, I didn't disappear
Now the lights are on
See I was never gone

I let go of your hand
To help you understand
With you all along
Oh, I was never gone

There's space between our lives
Hard to face, but I know we try
To revive, bring it back to life
Don't walk away
Don't walk away

I'm still standing here
No, I didn't disappear
Now the lights are on
See I was never gone

I let go of your hand
To help you understand
With you all along
Oh, I was never gone

I never ever left you
Never ever left you, no
He said, I never ever left you
Never ever left you, no
Jesus never ever left you
Never ever left you, no
He sees us even in the darkness
Now you know you're not alone

I'm still standing here
No, I didn't disappear
Now the lights are on
See I was never gone

I let go of your hand
To help you understand
With you all along
Oh, I was never gone

I'm still standing here
No, I didn't disappear
Now the lights are on
See I was never gone

I let go of your hand
To help you understand
With you all along
Oh, I was never gone

All of Your Heart - FM Radio

Rose Falcon -- If love Had A Heart

Why did you have to make me fall so deep 
Give me something that I couldn't keep 
Lift me up and then let me down so hard 

Faint Not (full album) (playlist)

<3 <3 <3 AMAZING LYRICS + MUSIC <3 <3 <3

Carry Me - Jenny & Tyler feat. Mac Powell (audio/lyrics)

Damn !! what a killer !!

absolutely amazing ..

cant get enough ..

I Miss You ..

I Miss you ..
those eight letters aren't even enough ..
to describe how much I miss you ..

If only you knew how I feel inside..
you would come running to me because there is nothing to hide..
you can see it in my eyes..
they say it all ..

I miss you..

Ne-Yo - Forever Now

Lianne la Havas - Gone lyrics on screen

damn !!!

The Strange Familiar - Alibi Lyric Video

Lucia-Silence LYRICS

Amazing!

James Arthur - Impossible - Official Single

Damn ..I fucking love this song .. and his voice <3

Ellie Goulding - Anything Could Happen

my addiction !!

Adele - Don't You Remember (Live at Largo)

AMAZING ...!!

Imagine Dragons - Demons